Here I go again...

I don't know why I have such an issue losing weight. I hate how I look, I hate that my clothes don't fit me right, I hate seeing myself in a mirror, so you think I'd be really motivated, right? Yeah, I thought that too. I'll do really well at eating well but then slack on exercise. If I exercise, I find that I'm a lot better about what I eat because I don't want to blow what I did. Now that Will's started preschool I think our schedule is going to calm down a bit, so I should be able to establish some kind of exercise routine again. It helps that John is going to take Will to school, so that gives me two mornings a week with only one kid, and Miles usually sleeps pretty late. We also ordered a treadmill from Costco.com over the weekend that will be here in a couple weeks, so I'm looking forward to using that, and I'd love to start running some. At one point I had bookmarked a website on how to go from not running at all to being able to do a 5K. I'm going to try and find that again and maybe set a goal for myself of being able to run the 5K Race for the Cure in October, but I guess it kind of depends on when the treadmill actually gets here.

I re-started Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred this morning (let's not talk about how many times I've re-started it) and kept telling myself, "It's only 20 minutes...I can do anything for 20 minutes..." Really what's 20 minutes in the grand scheme of my day? Nothing. I have no excuse when I think of it like that.

John and I had a weekend alone at a resort in Scottsdale, and I was looking at some pictures from the weekend and was DISGUSTED with how I looked in one of the pictures he took, so that was a big motivator for me to get back on track. I don't want to keep on looking like that!

I also re-started using the Lose It app on my iPhone today so I can keep better track of what I eat and my exercise.

Fingers crossed that this time I actually get somewhere! My first revised goal is to lose five pounds before we go to Seattle in three weeks. Attainable if I really work at it!!!