Friday, May 29, 2009

lost cause?

Today is my friend Jen A's birthday, and we had a lunch party here in her honor. I totally over-indulged. We had pizza (Little Ceasar's, which after looking up the nutritional info actually isn't that unhealthy), ceasar salad, crazy bread, cookies, and cake. I had three pieces of pizza. I know, I know...I was weak. I had a lot of salad, though, and not a lot of dressing on it. I cut a piece of cake for Will (so it was pretty small) but someone already had one for him, so I ate the small piece. I was kind of bummed because had I known, I would have given myself a bigger piece, but it worked out well. My friend JoEllen left some of the cookies she brought, and I've had a couple through the course of the afternoon because they're sitting out on the counter. Oh, and I didn't exercise this morning because I needed to finish cleaning house for the party, although I did clean up the backyard and patio and vacuummed the downstairs of my house, so I figure those things count as some activity at least.

So, I'm wondering if today is a lost cause or if I should try and get back on track with dinner. The husband and I are going to have dinner after the boy goes to bed, and I'm still trying to decide what we should have. He suggested grilled pizza, which does sound good, but we always over-indulge when we do that for dinner. My friend Jenn left the rest of the salad here, so I could have a big plate of salad before starting on the pizza so it fills me up more and I eat more of that than pizza. We'll see what I decide.

Update: We did end up grilling pizza. We had mushroom and black olive which is my absolute FAVORITE pizza. I made up a huge salad to eat before I ate my pizza, so I only had two pieces, which is pretty good I think. The husband went a little overboard putting the cheese on the pizza, but other than that it was a pretty healthy pizza. We make our own dough, so I know it's pretty healthy, and I ended up making my own sauce as well because I didn't have any on hand (downside of making my own pasta sauce I guess), so I threw a can of diced tomatoes into the food processor and added some Italian seasoning, garlic powder, onion powder, and crushed red pepper. I really need to make sure we always have salad on hand because eating a big salad along with dinner really helps me avoid over-eating.

Willpower!!

It's been a long day, and it's really taking a lot of brain power on my part to think back to yesterday. I didn't exercise in the morning because we had to leave the house by 9:10, and I'm not good at getting out of the house early as it is, so I didn't want to risk being late because we had to be somewhere at a specific time. I ended up just having some handfuls of Life cereal here and there while I was getting things done before we left the house. I know, I know...breakfast is the most important meal of the day and all that, but I just kind of forgot to eat. I took Will to see his first movie, and we took our own snacks instead of buying over-priced unhealthy snacks at the movie theater. I ended up not eating that much of the light popcorn I had taken because I was holding Miles and he kept grabbing for the bag of popcorn when I'd have it. I didn't want my baby to have either a plastic bag or popcorn, so I only had a few bites.

We saw the movie with several friends and went to Chick-Fil-A for lunch afterwards. Now, generally I can resist fast food because it just isn't good to me and I always feel sick after I eat it. But Chick-Fil-A is a BIG weakness of mine. I love it, and we don't have one right near us, so it's a big treat when we have it. I love their original chicken sandwich with some cheese and mayo on it. And don't even get me started on their waffle fries. So I had to be super strong when we ewnt there. And I was...I got a chargrilled chicken salad and only put half the dressing on it, no croutons or sunflower seeds. I did have two of Will's fries, but I figured that was okay. I was ridiculously pleased with myself for managing to stay on track and not give in!

For dinner I made a risotto with edamame and mushrooms. I think it was fairly healthy because it called for half and half as an optional ingredient, but I left it out, so it was really just arborio rice, edamame, mushrooms, chicken broth, and parmesan cheese. I did go back for a small helping of seconds, but it wasn't a lot that I put on my plate.

Oh, and I got rid of the remaining tres leches cake and blackberry cobbler that were in my fridge. I had one bite of the cake before I tossed it.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Wednesday, May 27th

I started my day again with Jillian Michaels. She's a fiesty little minx, but I'm hoping she gets me skinny again. I really like the 30 Day Shred video. It's pretty short, too, which is nice because it lasts the same length as Will's "Special Agent Oso" show. he was sad this morning that he didn't get to do exercises with me. :)

I had another homemade bagel with some light cream cheese for breakfast. I was thinking I'd had something else as well, but now I can't remember what it was. We went to the children's museum today and then met my friend Benah for lunch. We went to a really good pizza place I used to eat at back in my working days. I really wanted two pieces of pizza, but instead I opted for one (thin crust with eggplant, pine nuts, and I don't remember what else...it was tasty) and a side salad with dressing on the side. I barely used any dressing, I was so pleased with myself. This afternoon I got a little snacky, but I stayed good. I had some multigrain Tostitos and salsa while I was making dinner. For dinner we had cheese enchiladas. I made some rice to go with them, but it didn't turn out, so we ended up just having the enchiladas. I had two and they were pretty filling. I was sooooo tempted all day to dig into the remaining tres leches cake in my fridge, but I didn't. Woo hoo!! In fact I really wanted a little something sweet after dinner, but I just kept drinking my water instead.

Not sure if I'll be able to exercise tomorrow morning because we're going to a movie at 9:45 and have to leave the house around 9:10. I may do some Wii Fit in the afternoon during naptime instead.

Tuesday, May 27th

So, I wasn't able to resist the barbecue like I thought I would. It was all homemade and AWESOME. Ribs, brisket, sausage. Oh man, I totally went overboard. And that doesn't even cover the bean dip, artichoke dip, queso, beans, and desserts I also feasted on. It was baaaaaad. But it was tasty. I weighed myself Tuesday morning and was up three pounds. Yikes.

Yesterday I had a great day, though. First thing I did when I got up yesterday morning was put on exercise clothes. After Will had his breakfast I put him in the toy room to watch his morning shows and I did Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred video. I felt great after doing it, although really sweaty and to be totally honest, I hated feeling my fat jiggle around while I was doing jumping jacks and other cardio exercises. Gross.

Since I worked my ass off (or at least felt like I had), I wanted to be good about my eating all day. For breakfast I had a homemade bagel and a container of yogurt. Will and I had a picnic for lunch; I was going to make a chicken wrap, but my tortillas had seen better days, so I made a yummy salad instead. Spring mix, sliced chicken, feta, sliced strawberries. It was great! Will and I shared a bowl of strawberries, too. I had a granola bar in the afternoon for a snack. For dinner I made a really good chicken and pasta dish with a light cream sauce and had a salad on the side.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Holiday Weekend

So, maybe right before a holiday weekend wasn't the best time to start my attempt at weight loss. That was poor planning on my part, although I have tried to be good. Friday we went shopping with my mom and aunt, and I chose healthy at the restaurant where we had lunch, even though I was so tempted to get something either cheese-laden or with a cream sauce (or both!). John and I were going to have dinner after Will went to bed on Friday night, and Will had grilled cheese for dinner. John asked if I'd want to split one with him as a pre-dinner snack, and I said no. I was pretty pleased with myself for that.

Saturday we went to my mom's to celebrate Miles' six month birthday, and I completely over-indulged in everything--snacks before dinner, food at dinner, cake. Although the cake itself was pretty healthy (I used applesauce instead of oil and Egg Beaters instead of eggs), the cream cheese chocolate frosting I made to go on the cake was not. It sure was tasty though! I ended up forgetting what was left of the cake at my mom's, so at least I couldn't snack on that.

Sunday I was proud of myself at church because I really wanted to finish Will's donut when he didn't eat all of it, but I refrained. Normally I can take or leave donuts (except the ones with chocolate icing and filled with custard...I love those!), but I got in the habit of eating one at church (okay, sometimes I'd have two...) when I was pregnant with Miles, so now it's hard for me to resist. I had half a wheat bagel when we got there with a little light cream cheese on it and that was it. That was a big step for me! And then last night John and I ended up eating almost an entire blackberry cobbler I had made. Sigh. It was so darn tasty!! Actually I don't think it was too unhealthy, but we definitely ate more than we needed to.

Now tonight we're going to a BBQ at a friend's house. I think they're serving actual barbecue, not like burgers and hot dogs. That will be a little easier for me to resist because I'm pretty lukewarm about barbecue. I like it, don't get me wrong, but it's not really something I indulge in, if that makes sense. Like I know I won't go overboard eating it. Now the side dishes and desserts--that will be more difficult for me. I'm making tres leches cake to take, which I love. Potlucks are a serious downfall of mine.

Two benefits of this weekend have been I found some really good motivation for starting to lose weight. We were shopping on Friday for a dress for my aunt for my cousin's wedding in August. Let me tell you--looking at all the cute clothes out right now and knowing I wouldn't fit into any of them if I tried them on was a pretty good motivator. As was taking a good hard look at myself in my swim suit yesterday before hanging out in our little inflatable pool with Will. Yikes. Now with that vivid, ugly image burned into my brain I think I should be able to have some willpower (blackberry cobbler last night aside) and dedication in getting this done.

Tomorrow when I get up I'm putting on exercise clothes, and when Will's done with his breakfast he can watch his shows in the toy room and I'll do an exercise video in the family room. There are a ton on OnDemand from our cable, and I have the Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred video that I actually really enjoy. I've also planned out breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the upcoming week. I always plan dinners, but I'm bad about figuring out things for breakfast and lunch. I figure if it's written down it will be a lot easier to stick to and follow than just wandering around my kitchen trying to find something.

After I get done updating blogs I'm going to work on cleaning/organizing/rearranging our office. We're trying to find a treadmill we like, and this is where we're going to put it. I want to get the room ready so when we find one we like it's all set to go and we can start using it right away. John's been running at the gym, and I've wanted to start for a long time, but I don't want to buy a jogging stroller to take the kids with me (plus it's getting too hot to do that).

Thursday, May 21, 2009

May 21, 2009

I'm not really sure how I want to do this. List out my food for the day? What I did for exercise? Thoughts for the day? I'll figure it out as I go, I guess. I set up some goals by date/trip, but I'm not sure how realistic they are. Forty pounds seems a lot to lose by the end of the year. Really I want to be down by 20 pounds by our big October trip. Hmmm...maybe I'll redo the goals based on those.

So, here's what I ate today...

Breakfast
Container of light lemon yogurt
Breakfast burrito in whole wheat tortilla with Egg Beaters and potatoes

Lunch
Salad with chicken, craisins, blue cheese, walnuts, and raspberry vinagrette (dressing on the side)

Dinner
Mexican chicken (chicken breast with salsa and 2 Tbsp reduced fat cheddar cheese)
Yellow rice and black beans
Glazed carrots

Snacks
Handful multi-grain Tostitos
Three Trader Joe's oatmeal chocolate chip cookies (they're little!!)

The only exercise I did today was walking around the botanical gardens, which was by no means aerobic, but I was pushing a stroller with two kids on it, so I figure that counts for something.

I have a problem with snacking later in the day. I've always known that's my dieting downfall, but I'm not sure how to combat it. I like to have a little something sweet after dinner, and I usually snack while I'm cooking dinner. I need to come up with a solution for those two things. I really liked my breakfast this morning--I like breakfasts that are high protein and/or high fiber because it keeps me full for longer. We ended up eating lunch out with my mom today at Rainforest Cafe, but I feel like I made an okay decision, especially getting the dressing on the side. They brought me probably 1/2 to 2/3 cup of salad dressing on the side, and I used maybe one tablespoon. After dinner I kept taking bites of the rice and beans, but when I looked on the package I saw that there were only 2.5 servings, so I didn't feel quite so bad especially since the beans add extra fiber to it.

Tomorrow we're going to the mall with my mom and aunt, so I'm sure we'll have another lunch out. I've already looked up what restaurants are there and have an idea of what I could get that would be healthy regardless of where we go.

Here I Go!

After seeing pictures my mom took on our recent trip to San Diego, I've decided it's time to start getting back in shape. We have a few trips coming up, and I'm planning on using those as my weight loss goals. I normally eat pretty healthy, but I need to get in more exercise. It's tough to do with two small kids, but I'm going to find a way!

My plan for the blog here is to keep track on a daily basis of what I'm eating and what I do for exercise. I heard recently that the ideal weight for adults is what they weighed when they were 18. If that's the case I need to drop about 40 pounds. I did some Googling (because isn't that what you always do when you don't know something?) and found some charts for ideal weight based on your height and frame size. I'm 5'10" and think I have a medium frame, so according to the charts my weight needs to be 142-156 which about matches up to what I was at 18. I think I was around 145.

The back-up plan, of course, is to wait until the husband gets a bonus next year and get the Mommy Makeover (boob job and tummy tuck).